First thing's first: I started an engagement blog for me and Chris. You can read it at:

http://seilard.blogspot.com

"Seilard" is our celebrity name. It's like "bennifer."

Second, I called my grandma yesterday to tell her happy birthday and she asked if Chris and I were still engaged... I said yes... she said she couldn't wait until "that day comes" and I told her how it probably wouldn't be for another year and a half... and she said, "Oh. I might not make it, then." WHAT!?!?!??! GRANDMA!!!!! You don't say things like that! Not to me! I can't handle it!! Then at 3:30 in the morning I started crying hysterically because once you start thinking about one person dying you think about EVERYONE dying. I woke Chris up and cried for like a hour saying how "it's not fair. WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO DIE??????" and other crazy, dramatic things. It was just horrible. I still had puffy eyes when I was putting on makeup for the show today.